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I can understand your anxiety, but in most cases knowing is better than not knowing. Should the worst prove to be true, then at least you can make your decisions based on facts and not on fear. I fully agree with quality of life issues. But it seems to me that you have some time left at least. Don't let depression rush you into anything. Having said that, it's not too early to start preparing. Many people leave the final act too late, until they are unable to take the necessary steps unassisted. That our 'civilised' societies insist that people continue to struggle on in pain rather than take a dignified way out is beyond my understanding. I had a friend who underwent chemo. He swore never again. Fortunately, for him it did rid him of the cancer and he was able to enjoy his life again. Ironically, the threat of his door being kicked in and years spent confined to a cell, prompted him to end it all. He had it all worked out and I believe his death was peaceful and painless. Sometimes the struggle just becomes too much. It helps to have people around who we can talk to and share with but ultimately the decision to stay or to leave must be one we make for ourselves. Please remember that you have friends here, and although our assistance may only of a token amount, you are not alone. |