and, another one is finished

2k4 was rather blah for me, very uninteresting, unexciting, etc. But it ended well. Besides my running into the twins, I had a visit from the boy i am in love with, Justin. See, he was forbidden seeing me at all. for almost a year, he would sneak over to see me. Then he stopped coming. I ask his school chums about him, they say he is well. Imiss him, and that is all i can do. See, everytiome his mom finds out he's been with me, he gets a beating. I mean with a stick or a belt.He and i have discussed the option, turning it over to DFS, etc. but we decided that it's better the devil you know than the one you don't. I told him that it's his choice the visiting, and i will neither encourage nor discouragge it. It him who gets the beating, he should decide. Well, He tries to be a "good boy" for his mom, though he knows it will never be good enough. Sometimes(he said) it just gets so that it's worth risking the beating. dec 30 was like that i guess, because when i arrived home from work(four hours early, how did he know?) he was waiting on my stoop. Man,it was great to have him in my arms again, to feel his arms around me, his breath on my neck, and the long quiet time we just stayed like that holding each other, the taste of his ears, the smell of his hair. I miss him so much. I thought i was over it. but, he's one of those kids that constantly drifts in and out of my life, leaving an emptiness when he's gone. Jericho was like that, Paco was like that, and now, Justin. Anyway. it was nice having him here, and worth the emptiness he leaves behind. Something tells me he will be back soon. call it intuition.call it wishful thinking. The boy is mine, and i am his, he knows it, i know it, his mother fears it, but she knows it too. And so, that was my end of the year gift from "the universe": 3 hours of bliss with the boy i am in love with. followed by 48 hours of non-stop fun with two teen boys, Saint, and Chris. See, we were scheduled to attend a big LAN party at the gaming center, but last weekend, Saint, Alex, Chris and I went gaming, and chris and alex decided they were not going.See, Alex was intending to spend NYE with hs GF, which i don't think chris understood. You have to understand that Alex and chris have been "playmates" since they were like 7 years old. They have done things with each other that boggle even my jaded mind, heh. the thing is, they remind me of the movie "Chuck and Buck" Alex is tall, handsome, athletic, outgoing, and hung like a stud horse. Chris is heavy, non-athletic, doesn't make friends easily, usually tags along with his younger brothers crew(BL-in-training?). Anyway, Alex said he wasn't going NYE with us, so chris decided he wasn't either. Thinking of course he would spend it with Alex. Well, that left me and Saint, and as the saying goes, "in for a penny;in for a pound" so we decided that to make sure neither of us ditches the other, we both prepaid for the LAN party. So it was a date. Then the little scammer decided he should spend the night with me thursday, and gave him fam some lame excuse(the LAN party starts at noon, and this way we can just take a metro into the city and not have to bother anyone for a ride). You know, I dearly love my 1 on 1 time with Saint, because he is starting that curious phase of puberty, lots of questions, etc. So yeah, I was ok with him staying. Well, Saint's step-mom called and said she was dropping the boys off(she is chris' bio-mom) apparently, chris was still not going on NYE, but was just coming for a day visit. While he was here, he changed his mind(of course, he's like a woman in that regard, wishy-washy). Well, a quick scan of the gaming center's foruns showed 1 available spot at the lan, and it was going to the first to pre-pay. Of course i volunteered my VISA and we prepayed it for chris. So, there we are two boys, (for some value of "boy"...they are 14 and 16) and me together for the next 56 or so hours...whatever will we do? The boys decided they wanted alcohol [content deleted by author]. I don't drink, but they sure did. Then, they smoked marijuana. I don't do that either, but they sure did. It wasn't long after that when they started to play amongst themselves. with the high point being Saint, blowing his 14 yo load accidentally all over the sleeve of his sweater. This cause him to remove the sweater, and go shirtless the rest of the night. Then, he asked for wank lube, i told him there was lotion in the bathroom. he got THAT all over his pants, so of course, he removed those as well. Then, the little hussy, starts teasing me. he pulls his chair over next to mine, lays his head on my shoulder, breathing heavily(and heavenly) on my neck. he lay his palm on my thigh with his fingertips barely reaching the "no zone". and he says(the classic blonde mating call[tho he is not blond]) "I'm so drunk, I dunno what i'm doing" What he was doing was giving me a raging boner, and he knew it. I told him, "dude, you're giving me a boner" "no i'm not" he said, as he groped my dick, "oh, wait, maybe i am" I'll leave you to imagine the rest, but suffice it tosay chris passed out, after 3 wanks(one from Saint). and Saint lay down and asked me to share his blanket. The kid must have insisted several hundred times, matter-of-factly that he is not gay, and each time, my reply was "cool, me neither". So yeah, we got precious little sleep that night, then at eleven a.m. we showered(seperately, much to my chagrin) and headed out for a 20 hour LAN party. That was my second end-of-the-year gift from "the universe" The third and final installment came in the form of Joe. He's a regular at the LAn center. His cousin is a member of the CS clan recruiting me(i didn't know they were cousins till last night). I had seen and ogled joe on previous trips to the LAN center, but never spoken to him directly(i never approach boys, even attractive ones...I just sit here licking my eyebrows til they come talk to me...J/K). Chris on the other hand, he approaches strange boys all the time. Joe is 10-ish, very cute of face, has a semi-asian look to him, in fact, he looks exactly like jericho's older bro when he was that age, down to the same haircut, same almod shaped eyes, same cute little turned up nose, same stocky(not fat) build. OK, so, as i said, chris took the last guaranteed spot for the partu by prepaying, Joe did not pre-pay, so he was on standby, meaning he paid the same amount, ($15USD for 20 hours of net games, lan games, Xbox,pool, foosball, and arcade games) but he had to wait til there were available puters, whereas those of us who prepaid we assigned a computer for the duration. So, out of the blue, Joe wanders over t chat with me, since he has no puter. Mostly, we talked about gaming, and about my new rig, and the fact that i was ordering DSL(which became available in chimpolandia only 2 days ago, so i ordered yesterday). Joe explained his situation about "flying standby" at the LAN, and I Said, "look, kid, i was up all night last night, alot of it on my own puter from home. my eyes feel like their gonna bleed, explode, or both. So, why don't you play on my machine for an hour or two, i'm going downstairs to take a nap" "Do you feel sorry for me because i am not gaming?" "no, i feel sorry for me, because i am not sleeping" Ok, now, Downstairs is the "lounge" where the pool table xbox, bigscreen tvs, and foosball table are, as well as a sofa and loveseat. There seldom is anyone down there, and with the release and acquisiton of Half-life 2 and Counter-strike: source, everyone wanted net games last night, so i decide it would be nice and quiet there, and i could get a nap. And I *could* have! If not for the fact that i had been there 5 minutes, decompressing before sleep, when who wanders down? yup, Joe. he comes and sitss next to me where i lay, on the couch. "you asleep?" "yes" "very funny. I just came down to see if you wanted a drink or something, it was really nice of you to let me take your machine" "Bleh, i need the rest anyway...oh, and why are you here if you have a machine?" "well, i just wanted to thank you for being so cool to me" then, get this: he kissed me on the cheek, and ran up the stairs. had i not been so tired, i may have persued this. I slept, and i was awakened by the voice of an angel...ok, it was just joe, but 10 boys sound like angels when they are awakening you. The gaming center had bought pizza, and he didn't want me to miss out, so he brought me a plate with 3 slices, and another "Bawls" energy drink.(god i hate energy drinks...water is my energy drink of choice). So, here i am, in an awkward silence with a boy i just met who kissed me on the cheek, brought me pizza, and sits very close to me. we're downstairs, alone, in the dim light. OH the thoughts that went through my mind! but I was tired you see, and unsure who would wander down, and when, so it was just nice to be fawned over by this kid. and that concludes my end of the year post.